salam all....
wah....agak x best laa starting cuti sem aku neh....nothing interesting to do....nak hangout ngan kawan2,ade jep halangan2 nye....takde rezeki kot nak lepak ngan akak senior aku....dah laa ni last sem dye...risau laa takot2 x dapat jumpe dye lagi pasni....kak ina,ku sayang kamoo walopon kadang2 kamooo agak sengal...hahahaha....
hurm....dok saje2 neh membuatkan aku tringat lak kat crite2 lame zaman mude2 dulu...hahahahhaahh.....bile aku tringat cter lame neh laa buat aku jadik touching sorang2...huhuhuhu...sdey gler....
tringat kisah chenta munyit dulu...walopon just chenta munyit,tapi still tinggalkan kesan yang mendalam aaa pade hidup aku sampai skarang neh....that's why jangan main2 dengan hati and perasaan orang...dont even try and dont even think about doing it to anyone...if it happens to you,we'll just need to accept it laa kan,what to do,it's fated to happen to us...but dont do it to others...the pain can slowly recover but the scar never fades...and that's what happened to me...
i still remember,the day that i met my best friend,Z,and he asked me...have i found someone(bf)? and i said i had no body till now...and he told me,never love someone with all your heart,or i'll turned out to be someone that i am right now...but what to do,benda dah berlaku..tapi walaupun dah nak masuk 4 tahun perkare nih dah berlalu,sakit dye tuh kadang2 datang sendiri..even bile kite tringat name dye saje pon...
just yesterday,aku chat ngan dye...and i could see that he's living over there with his wife happily...and with a baby gurl coming soon this early january,in winter,his family would be even more happier...he even told me that he couldn't wait for the day that little baby gurl to come around....he sounds really happy...
when he said that,bergenang gak air mate nih...dye dah bahagie skarang...aku doakan kebahagiaan family dye sampai bile2....tapi honestly,i felt sad coz i can;t be happy with him...he's not meant for me..."lelaki yang baik untuk perempuan yang baik"...maybe aku tak cukup baik untuk dye...i know he's a good guy...and i know that i am not that good for him...so i just got to live my life without him laa..just like what i am doing right now....
life's pretty hard for me...i don;t know whether it's just me or life does get pretty hard when it comes to me...i promised myself to not to let anyone hurts me like he does...but then again,it always happens again and again...
hurm...entah laa...aku dah tak tahu ape nak buat....ape yang aku mampu buat skarang cume tabahkan hati,trime je ape yang mendatang...walaupun hati ni bengkak,berdarah,bernanah skalipun,aku hanye mampu truskan hidup...biar lah yang dah berlaku tu lepas dan hilang ditelan masa,aku seboleh2 nye taknak ingat lagi dah...mengingat cerite yang menyakitkan hati tu hanye buat aku jadik manusie yang tak boleh terime kenyataan hidup...
"STOP THINKING BOUT YOU AIN'T GOT AND START BEING THANKFUL FOR WHAT YOU DO GOT..." tu yang akan aku vuba lakukan in order to live my life...no matter what happens,i'm just living my life...
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