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salam...
hi guys...=(
I'm not well and not so in the mood...
huhuhu....
erm.............
today i feel like writing about what my feelings are rite now...
kinda sad thinking about myself...
pity myself for living such a pitiful life...
hurm...
when i had someone i truly love, that someone didn't appreciate me and can't accept me the way i am...
when i let go of him,i thought i can have my old happy life back..
but pitifully,i can't...
and in just split second,someone's knocking on my heart....
and i started to like this guy...
we're just friends,but who cares.. i like him...
though i know he wouldn't even like me...
this is what i am feeling inside...
but i already made my promise to my mum and dad,that i will and i have handed over the duty to find me my soul mate or my husband - to - be to them,so i don't know what to do...
my heart says i got to ask that guy...
but my mind speaks the other way...
felt like better just let this feeling go away...
i'll be alright..
but will i be alright?
i don't even know...

apsal???

salam guys..urgh!!!!
malam ni memang nak marah sangat2!!
pelik taw tak...
or aku yang tak byase dengan sorang hamba ALLAH ni...
aku pon tak taw lah
tpi apsal slau sangat dye ni nak gurau kasar2 ngan aku ah?
aku rase cukup ringkas,mantap dan padat da aku terangkan kat dye yang aku ni pemanas orangnye...
takkan tak paham lagi kot..
urgh!!!
then came another annoying person,my ex-bf..
gosh!!!
couldn't it be worst??!!!
shit!
i am so freakin' damn pissed off right now!!!

pink-fuckin' perfect lyrics

salam...
hi guys,it's me again=)
today i would like to share with you,a new song from one of my fav singer,PINK (which i dedicated this font colour just her,LOL!=) )
i first watched her video on youtube on her vevo channel....my advice,better watch the clean cut version of her video on this song...=)
what i like about this song and about herself is that in her recent album,is that she's trying to stand up to the ' the under dog' or in easier words is people who is under estimated,looked down upon for just being themselves.that's what attracted me to listen to her song.not to mention her good music which i really2 love..=)
what PINK is trying to say in this song is for anyone who felt they're were living life in hell,felt down on their selves,underestimated,misplaced,unwanted,and any f**king negatives thing,to not feel that way..
everyone had their own way on living life.
everyone had their own gifts and talents.
everyone had their chances in life.
everyone is unique in their own way..
so don't feel down or misplaced,or unwanted if people looked at you like you're an alien or something.you are just yourself.you were just being yourself.that is how you are.
BE ORIGINAL.
BE YOU.

THIS IS THE LYRICS OF PINK'S NEW SONG,F**KIN' PERFECT.

made a wrong turn
once or twice
dug my my way out
blood and fire
bad decisions
that's alright
welcome to my silly life
mistreated,misplaced,misunderstood
miss "no way it's all good"
it didn't slow me down
mistaken
always second guessing
underestimated
look,i'm still around

pretty,pretty please
don't you ever ever feel
like you're less than
f**kin' perfect
pretty,pretty please
if you ever,ever feel
like you're nothing
you're f**kin' perfect to me

you're so mean
when you talk
about yourself
you are wrong
change the voices
in your head
make them like you
instead
so complicated
look how big you'll make it
filled with so much hatred
such a tired game
it's enough
i've done all i can think of
chased down all my demons
see you do the same

pretty,pretty please
don't you ever ever feel
like you're less than
f**kin' perfect
pretty,pretty please
if you ever ever feel
like you're nothing
you're f**kin' perfect to me

the world stares while i swallow fears
the only thing i should be drinking is an ice cold beer
so cool in lying and we tried,tried,tried
but we tried too hard
it's a waste of my time
done looking for the critics
coz they're everywhere
they don't like my genes
they don't get my hair
stringe ourselves
and we do it all the time
why do we do that?
why do i do that?
why do i do that?

ooh,pretty,pretty please
don't you ever ever feel
like you're less than
f**kin perfect
pretty,pretty please
if you ever ever feel
like you're nothing
you're f**kin perfect to me
you're perfect
you're perfect
pretty,pretty please
don't you ever ever feel
like you're nothing
you're f**kin perfect
pretty,pretty please
if you ever ever feel
like you're nothing
you're f**kin perfect to me =)

hope you enjoyed it!!

what happened?

salam all...wah...
what a dull weekend..i'd rather had a day with full clas from morning till late in the afternoon than spending a day doing nothing all day long at home on weekend.
can't ask my peeps out coz they're working too on weekends..=(
demm..such dull day makes me go nuts..
also to add the bad taste to my already dull day,is my stalking ex-bf...=(
urggh!!!can't he just go away and live his life normally like other people??
why keep bugging me when i already dumped him??
is it too much if i asked why didn't he hate me for what i've done to him?
regardless all the things he'd done to me all along the 8 months we're together which makes me can't stand him anymore and make dump him,why can't he hate me?
all i wanna ask is just for him to go away from my life and live his own life..that's all dude?
why don't you just go and get your own life?
i'm not gonna be your soul mate dude..
i've already gave that work of finding my soul mate to my parents,and now i wanna live my life to the fullest...don't want to think of anything else..don't want people to stop me from doing anything that i wanted to...
i hate that so much..really2 hated it...
go get a life laa...
leave me alone...
i've a guy that i like right now...
he might not look as good as you,but he always makes me smile,even when i cried about you,he makes me smile...he's crazy,yes he is =)but he's a good friend of mine,and i liked him.
and about you,yeah,i still cried though,whenever i think about you,but it doesn't last long..that guy always makes me forget all my sadness..=)
that's is why i liked him.
not you.
so go away and get your own life!

akhirnya...

salam..wah...
so tired today...
hi guys...=)
erm..don't know what to babble about actually today..just felt like wanna open up my humble blog n updating with something,but what thing, i don't know...
hahahha...boleh ka macam tu?
tak kesah la...
anyways,wanted to congrats my dearest sister merangkap roommate sejati since my third semester until my las semester now,kak long a.k.a noraini binti nasnan for her 22nd birthday...tua dah kak long,hopefully nanti jaga abg long baik2 ye..=)
thanks for madam shafinas for such a chaotic,havoc and fun filled night with you while celebrating kak long's birthday...that was the night that i would never forget inmy entire life...=)
actually,first time kot hangout with madam,never thought she would be such like us!hahahah...
erm,thanks so much to abg long too for buying all of dinner,whoch is unexpectedly soo much actually,with the spicy chicken,and large sets of prosperity burger for each and everyone of us..hahaha...that was heaven on earth for a while for me when i see those fries and big cokes...hahahha..
oh,sorry for not telling you anything about my latest news...
until now,it's been almost two weeks since i broke up woth my boyfriend...
yes,i broke up with him...=(
it's a decision that i've made,and i think it's for the sake of me too...
what's love when it keeps on hurting you?
love won't work if it hurts...
and in a relationship,the one most important thing is trust..and i don't have that in my relationship.i'm not blaming him for that..everyone had their own past stories,and so do i...but one thing that i learned from this relationship is to learn to let go...
there;s an old saying that said, "" sometimes to love is to let go..." and i've been there,and i've done that..not so long ago.just recently.
and sometimes mencintai tu tak semestinya memiliki...
if you keep hurting the one you love,then if you love them,just let go...
if they're really the one for you,they'll combe back for you..
if not,it's just that you haven't found the right one for you..
just let go and move on with life...
luckily,god gave me such good strength to cope with this...syukran lillah ta'ala..
and to tell you the truth,i've been praying for god to help him through this matter,praying for god to give him patience,strength,save him from any harm...
and until today,i thank god for keeping him safe and sound...
erm...ok lah dulu,xnak cerita panjang tentang ni,,just want to keep you updated with what happened with my life..that's all=)
nnti kite citer lagi ek...
leb you guys soo much!

heartbreaker or heartbroken???

salam all...wah...lame btol tak update blog kuh terchenta ni...da berhabuk berkepuk2...=) erm...da last semester da aku kat kolej...sedih lak ble teringat kene tinggal kawan2 yang selama tiga tahun ni,asek menghadap muke deme je,tiba2 nak berpisah lak kan...agak kesentuhan laa aku...=( erm...

actually guys...entry ni just nk cerita pasal aku..sebab blog ni memang tempat aku nak luahkan perasaan..hahaha...pasal aku lah..takkan pasal orang len lah...about my life kan..name blog pon melidrama diriku...about diriku laa...hihihi...=)

erm....i just broke up with my boyfriend..=(sad isn't it?haha,cam nak menagih simpati lak...but don't get me wrong..aku taknak pun simpati orang..tak perlu...it's part of my life's journey to the end of the road,back to where we came...and actually,aku agak terkejut jugak dengan keputusan aku,hati ni bebelah bagi,tak tahu betul ke tak jalan yang aku pilih,tinggalkan orang yang aku sayang n sangat2 sayangkan aku...but when love hurts,it won't work..so,better just walk out of it,rather than keep on hurting ourself...and aku rase inilah jalan yang terbaik...

tiap kali aku ingta dye,aku sebut nama dye,and aku menangis..but lepas tu okay lah..bukan aku tak pernah pun lalui semua ni..aku pernah je hidup macam ni selama 3 tahun..and aku sangat2 pasti yang aku mampu untuk hidup macam ni lagi...ape orang nak kate,kate lah...mungkin family dye will put the blame on me,hating me for what happened..(he's a delicate and complicated person...)..and i ove him,but i have to let him go...betul lah kata pepatah barat,"sometimes,to love is to let go..."...orang melayu lak cakap,"kadang-kadang mencintai tak semestinya memiliki...

aku da faham hint yang tuhan nak sampaikan kepada aku...aku sangat2 faham tu..banyak kali da aku perasan hint2 yang DIA berikan....aku bersyukur padaNYA sebab berikan aku kekuatan untuk hadapi semua ni...SYUKRAN YA ALLAH...and untuk itu,memikirkan keluarga yang sangat2 mengharapkan aku...harapan guru2 and kawan2 yang setia disisi,aku akan teruskan jugak perjalanan hidup ni,walau perit macam mana skali pun...

to umi,abah,siblings,my beloved cousins a.k.a. sistas,jaja,nana,nisah...kawan2 tersayang yag sentiasa disisi,ain,sya,echah,atie,abg long a.k.a ahmad fajri,kak long a.k.a. noraini,j sufri,fazrol nasir,yusuf,hamizan si gemok,and yang lain2....terima kasih...aku sayang korang sangat2....thanks sebab ade disisi bila aku perlu becerita and dengar leteran+bebelan+ngomelan aku dll....

syukur sepanjang perjalanan hidup ni,jatuh bangun aku,diiringi dengan keluarga and sahbat yang kuat dan selalu beri semangat..aku sayang korang semua...